Friday, I am really trying......

     I am really trying not to lose my mind, it might already be gone, who knows?  Mom has a doctor appointment this afternoon and one on Monday.  I swear she has two or three a week on purpose.  She has meds to pick up constantly. 

     Yesterday I kept a tick list next to my machine and every time she called for something or needed me I would put a tick down.  From 11:00 in the morning to 5:30 I had 33 ticks.  I won't do this again too disheartening.  Anyway I did take her down to the western union office to send money to my drug addict, insane, sick brother for his birthday.  The lady at the place knows us as we are there a lot sending money, mom gives me nothing.  We do insist on a stipend that barely covers her costs, actually it doesn't cover them but believe me I won't ask for more.  She is snotty about it and calls it rent.  No mom it is your cell phone your netflix and cable, your pads, your ensure, your constant need for crap food we don't eat.  Mom it is your share of expenses.  No let's give it all to my two indigent brothers, one who has been a drug addict all his life and the other with 5 kids, divorced, never has a job, has never bought a car as mom and dad always did that for him and mom pays his child support.Mom is very selfish, and cheap when it comes to her money.  Unless you are one of the boys then you just have to look pathetic and her check book is out.

     Mom is upstairs destroying the kitchen I just cleaned.

     I have plenty to do today, lots of end to tie up.  I did pick up my taxes and I was pleasantly surprised as I thought we would owe a lot, but we actually get a refund from the state and it is enough to pay the Feds.  So it is a wash.  Although the accountant was $370.00.  But well worth the expense.  I am going to have taxes taken out of Hub's retirement this next year to help keep us from owing as I won't have the studio loss to help any more.

     So I have something to be really grateful for right now, no large tax bill.  I will take that blessing thank you very much!

I need to have something for dinner, Hmmm.... Navy bean soup?

Have a great and productive day!

Kim